[	Tags	|	jobs, work, writing	]
[	Current Mood	|	happy	]

I was building a resume over at www.indianacareerconnect.com (a job board for ppl in Indiana) and they had lists of categories for your skill. For example: one category was "entertainment and media" and that had a huge list of skills beneath it. You click the box next to the things you've done whether they were in a professional setting or not.

I was able to click THIRTY boxes just in that category!!! I worked behind the scenes for Drama Club in high school and so have experience with spotlights and sound boards and stage make up and acting and costuming. I've also written a scrip myself.

Alot of my writing stuff came into play in the category too. I research alot for my stories and some of the skills were things like: "researching" or "organizing story elements" or "using written word to create a story". I don't remember all of them but DAMN I love when a hobby (that I want to make a living at) actually helps me get a job lol.

[	Tags	|	angelo, love	]
[	Current Mood	|	loved	]

Everyone in the universe will say that their significant other is the best one. It's no secret that I think my boyfriend is the best. But what I mean when I say that is that he's the best FOR ME. I'm not being possessive or anything, I'm just simply stating that while he's the best for me, he may not be the best for say Brooke Shields. It all depends on how personalities match up and various things like that. He says I'm the best but I can tell you that I wouldn't be the best for Hulk Hogan, I couldn't care less about wrestling or any sport for that matter. And I only work out when I have to. You all get my point though right? When someone tells you "you're the best" they mean that you are the best for them.~

That all being said, you may wonder why I say Angelo (ryuukojin) is the best for me. It is true that we are in a long distance relationship and that we have yet to meet 3D and I'm aware that you only see parts of a person over the internet, that some things are still clouded from your vision until you actually do meet 3D. Things like how a person normally dresses, or sits, or how much a person fidgets or talks with their hands, those are all hidden from my field of vision right now unless I choose to ask about them.

But those things don't really matter in how much you love a person. Angelo isn't a goth but if he were, would I love him any less? Would it change my feelings for him at all or make him any less perfect for me? No. Personality matters alot more than any of the previously mentioned things. Personality shines through over the internet and that makes it easy to fall in love with someone you have yet to meet 3D.

There is a saying: "Love isn't finding the perfect person, love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly and loving them anyway". I love that saying. No one is perfect, we all have our flaws. I'm not claiming Angelo is perfect, but he's perfect for me. I always wanted someone who is intelligent, a teddy bear, a geek, funny, an entertainer, sweet, romantic, creative, loving, compassionate, understanding, sympathetic, trustworthy, spiritual, etc. I could go on and on. But the point is, all these qualities seemed to coalesce into one amazing person that I am so blessed to call my boyfriend and to get to share my life with.

It hardly needs to be said after those 4 paragraphs but...I love my boyfriend very much <3 He means the world to me and always will.

[	Tags	|	writing	]
[	Current Mood	|	creative	]

Last night was a simple night. I stayed in and did nothing. Ok that's not entirely true. I broke up a cat right, finished a book, watched Ice Princess, and chatted with Angelo. But that all counts as nothing because it was quite relazing...except the cat fight.

I've been seriously lacking in motivation lately. Not on the job front, that's all going like it has been. But on the writing front. I have lots of ideas but no real motivation to produce them, get them down on paper and out of my head. Short stories and poems, yes. I can easily do those. But any kind of novel idea my hands are reluctant to scribble out.  I'm unsure why. Perhaps it's because writing a novel takes so long and, while I love it, I love change. The idea of staying with one idea for a year or more is a little daunting to me right now. Generally that's why I have several projects going at once. That way if I get tired of working with one story line, I can go right on to the next. This is the kind of thing I want to have going on right now. I love writing, I love churning out novel length stories. I love the way that allows me to get to know my characters as if I was their long lost friend and they were anxious to spill all their juicy secrets to me. But for some reason I can't make myself sit down and start writing.

Even as I'm writing this I'm working on a short story that was inspired by a conversation with Angelo last night. Can't remember what part of the conversation really inspired it but I remember laying there in bed thinking up the concept and story line and everything. I wasn't fully awake when I was developing it so whether or not it's following exactly what I originally came up with I can't be sure but I'm enjoying working on it. It's just a short story so I'm really hoping to finish it or atleast nearly finish it before I leave here today. That way I can have the weekend to edit it and then post it on my dA account on Monday/Tuesday. Because Monday's a holiday I may not be here. That remains to be seen yet :) In the mean time I'm going to go try to finish this.

[	Tags	|	weather, work	]
[	Current Mood	|	crappy	]

Man I've not felt that great all day. My allergies are flaring up and on top of that Aunt Flo comes to visit bringing gifts of headaches and nausea to make me (less than) happy. Ugh...sometimes I hate being a girl.

As much as I need a job, I turned down the interview. Perhaps it would've been better than nothing but...I subscribe to the philosophy where you're supposed to be happy in life and I know that working at that job, I wouldn't be happy at all. I'd be miserable. Besides I can see it turning into a position where you just wind up living at the office building and not having a life outside of work. I don't live to work. On the contrary I work to live!~

Aside from that, today has been sunny out but there seems to be a black cloud dangling above my head. I want nothing more than to write but anything that comes to me is pure crap. I'm wanting to go home, crawl into bed, and sleep for awhile. Hopefully I can wake up a bit more refreshed and get back to writing. And hopefully tomorrow will be better as well *crosses her fingers*

[	Tags	|	poetry	]
[	Current Mood	|	loved	]

 A Divine Rapture

 E'en like two little bank-dividing brooks, 
   That wash the pebbles with their wanton streams, 
And having ranged and search'd a thousand nooks, 
   Meet both at length in silver-breasted Thames, 
   Where in a greater current they conjoin: 
So I my Best-beloved's am; so He is mine. 

 E'en so we met; and after long pursuit, 
   E'en so we joined; we both became entire; 
No need for either to renew a suit, 
   For I was flax, and He was flames of fire: 
   Our firm-united souls did more than twine; 
So I my Best-beloved's am; so He is mine. 

If all those glittering Monarchs, that command 
   The servile quarters of this earthly ball, 
Should tender in exchange their shares of land, 
   I would not change my fortunes for them all: 
   Their wealth is but a counter to my coin: 
The world 's but theirs; but my Beloved's mine.

-Frances Quarles

~Felt like reading love poems this morning and this one reminded me of my boyfriend (ryuukojin)